Please permit the sharing of this bit of self-reflection. It is the marking and a celebration of a milestone.
I look at the new re-designed website with a sense of wonder.
Not at myself, my goodness. But at the power of the human spirit. The spirit that hopes and wills the creation of something.
No matter your starting point.
This website… I dreamed it, then created it. On my own. My vision, my voice.
I wouldn’t have imagined being able to do this last year.
Oh, there would be some bravado for sure. But a deeper sense of knowing? None for sure.
I’ve said in the past that 2013 was all about crawling out of a hole. The energy that allowed the crawling to happen? That, I believe now, was the work of the human spirit.
Reviewing this website, before I hit “publish”, gave me a chance to pause. Indulge in looking back. Where I was. The road traveled thus far.
What a difference a year makes.
A year ago, I …
Had never designed a website
Did not publish anything personal I’ve written for strangers to see
Shied away from deliberately sharing pictures of myself, let alone go on a photo shoot
Had never seen as many sunrises in a row
Could not have imagined having 1000+ Facebook followers
Did not own my own company
Had only imagined a second act
Had an impressive job title
Earned a six-figure income
Bought purses and shoes on a whim
Could have renovated my kitchen in a heartbeat
Often felt empty
Worked my butt off to earn people’s approval
Did not eat as much fruit, salad and fish
Could not take up a daily walking habit
Avoided trying new recipes
Worked 16+ hour days
Looked to others for validation of my worth
Felt unhealthy, depressed
Was looking for spirituality and grace
Used my voice to empower others’ dreams, not my own.